Life is like ....snowboarding ....u get on the board without any clue on whats going to happen or where its going to take u. So u start getting up trying to keep ur balance but first few minutes/hours u fail...u fall back on ur a$$ right from where u started .Slowly u start learning it , u start feeling its rhytm ...u learn as u go.
Life is full of thresholds....without these thresholds..life has absolutely no meaning...u can only identify them as u look back sometimes with remorse but mostly with pride.
Life is love...sadly we dont have enough patience to wait 4 the real one ...we always jump into comfortable relations driven by the fear of ending up alone...and so we do ..we end up being alone in a way or another unsatisfied by the bits of love we r getting ...always dreaming for more ...dreaming for the ultimate thing : 2 bodies becoming one ...reading each others mind....coz there is no love without sex...like there is no body without a soul, there is no thought without a dream, no space without time....no ying without a yang.
I repent all these years where i had to compromise....i repent all I have wasted of me...but I also know that LUCK is only for the courageous ones...so dare to dream...dare to achieve...we all are even...but only if u dare...
This thought just struck me just like any other thought....actually more over it started with a question and this question sounds something like that:....is there any perfect definition for “THE ONE”?....i guess there isnt...and ill explain why ...at least my point of view...the way i see things is : we(humans) ..we are in constant need of change ...(i had this conversation with a friend of mine few hours ago(well it wasnt much of conversation..it was more like he was talking and i was listening)and he said something like he is imune to feelings ...falling in love kind of feelings...before when he was younger (his early twenties) he used to fall for any girl he dated...now he just wants to have a kid with a random girl doesnt really matter who as long as she is willing to have his child....oh and it doesnt really imply marriage.
So my point is that “the one and only”is that person that can offer u what u need in ur constant need of change , the one that adapts to u and to ur changing nature, because everything in life is about giving and taking ....but thinking about myself...im just a mixture of thoughts ...mostly im independent 95% of my time...but the remaining 5 % worries me...
I love my freedom...it gives me wings ...but in time it becomes bitter and once i have it i lose my interest in it ....and thats the time when i need to change and try something new....thats the time when i need to be constrained and by this i mean commitment in any kind of form commitment exists..im also the stupid...exposed type...i follow my emotions...and ignore my intellect...my feelings dominate me instead of my thoughts....(hopefully not 4 long)...maybe i feel more than i can understand ...ah but the purpose of life its life itself i guess...we dont need a reason 4 everything so why the heck do i care so much abt each tiny thing that happens daily...i crave for that careless state of mind....hope that one day ill reach it ...it could be very handy :)
i always had this attraction for latin language so yesterday i read the definition of marriage (Roman law)...and i think it was for the first time that i was really impressed by it...and thats funny because 4 years ago i had to know it by heart and i hate being forced into something so i learned it without even understanding its essence:).. "Coniunctio maris et feminae consortium omnis vitae, divini et humani iuris communicatio"so translated it sounds something like that: conjunction of a man and a woman a lifetime union, an institution of divine and human law...
another latin definition :nuptias non concubitus, sed consensus facit(the essence of marriage is not sexual relation but consent). So i started digging a lil more about relationships and i got shocked finding out how many they exist(ignorance is bliss after all)...and google is man's best friend (newly) so am pasting it in here:
That is one big big list...some sound funny ..of some ive never heard before (cicisbeo,or Cavalier Servente, was the professed gallant and lover of a married woman, who attended her at public entertainments, to church and other occasions and had privileged access to his mistress) its funny how relationships changed through time;
Polyamory is the practice, desire, or acceptance of having more than one intimate sexual relationship at a time with the consent of everyone involved.
Polyamory, often abbreviated to poly, is sometimes described as consensual,ethical, or responsible non-monogamy.
So what is marriage after all? what does it represent?how did it appear? it all started as a need of the society to preserve the property .. and on the other hand it was meant to secure the environment 4 the perpetuation of human species . Marriage represents a complex system of rules (mostly customs) that grants different types of rights(mostly materialistic ones) and lets not 4get the most important pillar : the protection of the bloodline.
lost somewhere in the middle of my confusion...my blog depicts the only stone stepping these days....call it a way to burst all my frustrations:)) oh coz we all have them ..these common emotional answers towards opposition that arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of our will:) so ive been through all mood swings ...if i left one just name it:)) i havent discovered the cause yet but im working on it so im learning these days to close myself off and not to let anyone in ..why? coz its the best to keep urself from getting hurt ..to keep urself away from temptation, from pain, like a candle to snuff ur light at the lightest wind blow...keep urself 4 the ones that truly need u (family, pets, kids, friends). try to hold urself up ....enough for the pain to stop visiting you daily, weekly,monthly...till eventually u will shelve it and escape it...and later on u will even be able to tell a story about it ..a depersonalized one where u are the teller and someone else the character ..and all this happened in another lifetime...all this will end and as it will end a piece of u will go with it...but hey ...THIS IS LIFE..a dying an aging of passion..untill it disappears ....BUt the question is: Do i want it to disappear? do i want to kill it? isnt that life all about? love passion involvement...sometimes pain and deceiving....but sometimes.. maybe sometimes its worth fighting 4 it the only question is WHEN ?
i wish i could..stare at the wall...and each time i do.. see things in a different manner ...i wish i could see through my own eyes and watch things the way i picture them....i wish i could save all the memorable moments and put them in a jar....i wish i could hold on to the memory before the whole thing slips away....i wish i could stop myself from doubting...i wish i could conserve charm and dignity....i wish i could resist temptation...i wish i could stop turning molehills of minor difficulties into Himalayas of crisis....i wish i could understand ...i wish i could read your mind......i wish i could trust I WISH I COULD.....but apparently i cant...
there is no time 4 romance any more.....romance was replaced by sex & comfort....the private space was invaded by the outside world with its tentacles spread all over ... we crave 4 love....we want it coz its a drug that makes us vibrate....it makes our eyes shine it makes us radiant ..but in the end its only an illusion that fades with time ....human nature wasn't designed 4 love and romance....its not like it all started...we were based on instincts ....and as we evolved love was created as an important pillar 2 society...and now slowly we r degrading and we r going back to the basics.....back to instincts... its like a circle...it doesn't have an end nor a beginning it keeps on repeating when it reaches a certain limit or should i call it level? long time ago love was equal to sacrifice, struggle passion torment...looking back at the amore e psyche myth or the classics Romeo& Juliet; Helen of Troy &Paris ;Henry VIII & Anne Boleyn; Boccaccio & Fiammetta etc. today the world looks completely changed...it looks completely different than it did before...woman want children as a personal achievement -and not (only)because they love the man/father-.....a new maternity developed...a maternity where the man is excluded....a maternity that encourages adoption as a sign of evolution... we want love...yes!!but sometimes we r 2 blind to see it....there is 2 much calculus too much self-esteem ...we became too analytic too aware and too lucid 2 be open 2 love... it seems that woman don't need protection as they used to...their pretty heads don't seek the masculine shoulder where they can cry their failures out loud...oh no they militate 4 equality ....they have career money projects relations....they even raise their kids alone....so the question is : what do they need from a man? the answer must be: just sex? life moves way too fast so there is no time for romance...if u really want it u plan it..romance involves money and an empty place in ur agenda....u got plenty of study material in movies: candles (scented preferably)..music ...flowers etc.. woman have the power....because beauty is legitimate through money and whims life is a constant show and it fascinates us with every act:)
Lies....such a common word...its always on our tongue ... the end result of a lie is deception.There are so many types of lies : bluffing...exaggerating...misleading...lying 4 a noble cause..etc..MEN lie more than woman! A world where people would tell each other only the truth would be a world of permanent war, of endless revenges and contempt.Lies are drugs . we are addicted to them and we cant quit them...and usually a lie follows another lie and so on ...an entire chain develops and suddenly we are just trapped inside .We swallow it daily...we avoid the truth with so much fervor with so much despair tht gives us no other choice. And because men fight so much to keep their supremacy in the war between the sexes ....they lie more often than woman.... they tend to thicken their qualities to the max and minimize their flaws till they become almost transparent , fine and delicate...very slightly tangible Men lie more often coz they cheat more often..because they dissimulate often trying to make it look different...to wrap everything in a nice package . Its called the pretender game:They pretend to tell the truth and we pretend to believe them.... Lies are part of our lives just like salt and pepper is part of our daily meal...without them our lives would be without any taste nor flavor ... kinda sad.... but unfortunately so true
we all have our own obsessions....so many even we dont know about...coz some remain dormant ...hidden deep inside us ....some are there for so long we cant even feel them...but what is a obsession? what defines an obsession?what causes an obsession? is it fear?....when u think constantly about something...does it imply anxiety?..does it give u small bits of pleasure?is it unreasonable?unexplainable?irrational?....can it be associated with desire?..i guess in time obsession start dominating you in a way or another whether ur aware of it or not...it traps you despite your attempts to resist it....it defines u in time....coz ur incapable to stop it...and it only grows in time
here are some of the personality traits according to the month I was born in:)
AUGUST:
Loves to joke Attractive Suave and caring Brave and fearless Firm and has leadership qualities Knows how to console others Too generous and egoistic Takes high pride of oneself Thirsty for praises Extraordinary spirit Easily angered Angry when provoked Easily jealous Observant Careful and cautious Thinks quickly Independent thoughts Loves to lead and to be led Loves to dream Talented in the arts, music and defense Sensitive but not petty Poor resistance against illnesses Loving and caring Loves to make friends
Virgo's sensual needs are often deep and powerful. Their sensitivity and delicacy make them aware of another person's needs in a very acute way which hastier signs don't notice. But Virgos can take a long time to really fall in love. They're not easily fooled by a pretty face or a beautiful body. They think too much and know too much:))(i love this part:P)
The Virgo partner needs to communicate, and work is terribly important. Virgos frequently identify with their jobs and validate themselves according to how well they fulfill their own expectations. If you don't share their interest in work, or show a willingness to talk about the things that are important to them, Virgo can get pretty bored with even the most sexually exciting partner. Emotion and sexuality aren't enough to hold a Virgo's heart. There has to be a meeting of minds.
Virgos like instruction manuals. They'll try anything if it's explained in clear, easy-to- understand steps. Take the instructions away and they often panic. They always read the handbook first(so not true....in my case handbooks are boring i prefer exploring), and this makes them terrifyingly competent in almost any sphere of life they choose to explore.
Unfortunately there aren't any instruction manuals for how to deal with love and passion (although there are lots that pretend to be). It's not surprising that so many Virgos are terrified of what they perceive as the dangerous lunacy of falling in love. You'll find many apparently cool and unromantic Virgos, sexually skilled but emotionally withdrawn, who tell you that doing it every night is good for you, but who won't ever utter that scary four- letter word beginning with "L".
Wild moonlit love-at-first-sight encounters aren't Virgo's style. They observe the world too much to take such encounters seriously. And they don't like gambling. Gambling with instantaneous passion can be hurtful and disillusioning. Some Virgos go cold and shut out anyone to whom they're too attracted, because they mistrust anything sudden, uncontrollable or unexplainable.
Of course, you'll sometimes find a really wild{:))}Virgo who seems to break the mold. But look closely. You'll usually find that their heart hasn't really been touched. Love, for Virgo, is something that takes time, knowledge, and careful nurturing. In the end, they'll choose the reliable over the flamboyant.
Virgos are realists. You can see this in their tastes, their furnishings and their working life. The useful, the safe, the knowable, the things of quality, are always preferable to the gaudy, the temporarily fashionable, the unreliable, the "cheap and cheerful". It can be a terrible bore or, tempered with a little humor and a sense of fun, it can give a quality of understanding, warmth and wisdom which is powerfully magnetic and highly attractive. The operative word here is "fun". The Virgo partner may need your help in learning the word.
Earthbound Virgos often starve themselves of sheer joy in life. They want it badly, but they're afraid they'll have to pay too high a price for it. Virgo people can often be seen with long lists of what must be done each day. Play is not included on the list. Virgos often choose a partner who embodies all the frivolity, unpredictability and "selfishness" (this is a favorite Virgo word) they won't allow themselves.
If you're the dashing, unreliable fiery type who seems to have a secret pact with the gods and actually gambles with life rather than displaying due caution, you're likely to be a magnet for a Virgo partner. That doesn't mean it's a union made in heaven. Either the Virgo partner loosens up and reveals that wonderfully poetic secret soul - in which case you're in for a delightful future together - or else he tries to play Pygmalion and chips away at you to get you to become more "mature". Then comes the final scenario of you spitting fire like a dragon and booking a solo flight to Goa because you're fed up with always being nagged and criticized.:)))
Relationships are rarely smooth and easy for Virgo, unless they play terribly safe and find themselves another earthy type who fits into that orderly Virgoan universe(sounds sexy).But then, sadly, they're always a bit bored, and life's a little dreary, and they feel they've somehow missed the boat. The Virgo partner can be the gentlest, kindest, cleverest and most genuinely helpful of mates. And yes, he can be passionate too. All he has to do is learn, every now and then, to be a child, and recognise that what is useful is not always mutually exclusive of what is alive and meaningful and full of joy.
Scarlet lips as red as a rose, perfect hips in a seductive pose. On the outside this is what I may be, but what about looking at the heart within me.
Long blond hair, surrounding my face, baby blue eyes and full of grace. This is what most men chase, but my soul and feeling cannot be erased.
Long, untouched legs with a snug fitting skirt, a short and sexy tube top shirt, I take my looks with little pride, for what I care about is what's inside.
They say that these looks are a sensation, that I am one of God's best creations, But all I really want is for you to see, all the good that is within me.
mmmm.....jealousy....strange feeling...emotion...based on fear, insecurity, anxiety....and more over it starts because of us...we create it ...we plant its seeds in our mind...and once they grow and they do grow very fast coz we feed them with our own fear ...they start a quick process of destruction...it destroys relationships and consumes our mind. Othello is the most famous literary work that focuses on the dangers of jealousy.. the play is aan amazing study of how jealousy can ruin lives...
it can be used as a weapon....it slowly destroys the other but for sure ur its next victim...
it is a complexity of thoughts, feelings, and actions....which threatens the self esteem and the existence of the relationship
sadly it cant be removed out of our palette of emotions ....we are programed like that....
all we can do is to control it in a way or another....
thoughts....................are mental forms and processes........
how many thoughts a human can have in his life?......impossible to say.....we are so complex and yet so many thoughts are left unpublished and unknown.... mostly forgotten, but a few remain in an imaginary cloud covering our head....from those few ones, many are left dormant for I’ve been lingering trapped in a damaged state of mind. ....frustrating. .....unproductive....who knows how many great ideas and inventions were lost like that?
its been days since my last post and many things have happened...changes have been drastic or not depends how u choose to look at it...it is only I that’s been idle.... thus I proclaim my return with a stockpile of random thoughts....
....wonderful song(here it is; leonard cohen)...kinda obsessed of it ...its on repeat mode since last time i opened my mp3 player...and its gonna stay like this for a while...yup...im that type..the type that plays on and on a song and actually never gets tired of it...:) then slowly we get over the addiction with the help of another addiction but once in a while we remember the old addiction ...and it always gets better and better..and that's the magic of each thing...the power of remembrance ... in time we sanctify memories...we put them on a high pedestal ....and whenever we look back they look brighter and substantial listening to it ...well the lyrics are kinda sad...i agree its a big pain to love and a great disaster to get rid of this pain:) sometimes we give up to soon... we choose separation without even looking back ... should we last longer?Or maybe we already had enough?...where is the limit?....i guess we all set our limits ...some have short limits some...just dont have limits.... how can we measure tolerance?and then compare it with the uprising that keeps us alive...for some separations are easy...in my case they are, because in time i learned what i want and i also learned that if u are perseverant in things you want ...eventually u get them...so once u find out that u dont share the same ideals ...thoughts...dreams anymore ..maybe its time for you to go on....and its the best....normally a long relationship is very abounding ....it takes all ur energy ..of course it depends on you how much time u offer but most people end up realising that they forgot about themselves....they forget to be selfish....the word selfishness has been condamned so much...but if u look deeper..to be selfish means to be urself...if u respect urself u can respect the others around u...without respect and trust(the 2 golden rules of any relationship-and by relationship i mean any kind love...business...friendship...etc) nothing works for real...
1.i love chocolate ....im such a sugar junkie 2.im pro gay rights... 3.i started loving things i used to hate....and hating things i used to love 4.I like Pina Coladas. And getting caught in the rain. And the Feel of the ocean...and the rest u figure it out. 5.i love thunderstorms ...fallen leaves...the smell of grass 6.im an art lover and anything that's weird thrills me 7.i like organizing my life and making lists 8.i love meg ryan and robin williams movies 9.im addicted to good music..especially jazz and swing and oldies 10.i love cooking ....and inventing new recipes 11.i love airports..and traveling 12.im a tea addict and love to experiment new recipes of coffee 13.my favorite color is turquoise 14.i enjoy talking to myself(more than i should:P) 15.i killed 20 ducklings when i was 2 years old(that was my first lesson of: TOO MUCH LOVE CAN KILL YOU ) 16.i never smoked...never even tried smoking.... 17.i enjoy reading before going to sleep 18.i dont snore 19.i like my sheets to be silky puffy and colored 20.i loooove kidsss 21. and dogs 22.and animals in general 23.i cant swim...and i cant ride a bike(yea i know) 24.my favorite seasons are spring and summer 25.I hope i never stop learning and growing. 26.I love to read....i would choose a book over most activities most of the time. 27.I despise ignorance, rude people, drivers using cell-phones, and stupidity. 28.i love to dance...like i never danced before 29.i love hot and spicy food 30.i enjoy opera...stand-up comedies...and jazz concerts 31.i love gazing at the stars....and contemplating the future... 32.im moreover spiritual than religious....i believe that God brings us together and religion separates us. 33.i enjoy every second spent with my family and my closest friends 34.i treasure sincerity... loyalty... kindness ...i choose intelligence over looks.. 35.i always keep my word...or at least do my best to keep it 36.i can be punctual 37.sunsets and sunrises... 38.used to play volleyball...football...tennis....ummm and i suck at basketball(but not 4 long) 39.i like to excel in everything i do....after all im a virgo 40....a neat freak... 41....this is tougher than i thought....will take me several days:D 42......hope ur starting to get bored and stop reading this:D 43....ok lets get back to business....my fav songs: diamond ring...kind of a woman....you & i.. 9 million bicycles .....holiday....poison....ppl are strange.... dance me to the end of love...amor amor...king of sorrow..astronomy..etc. 44. 2-3 showers per day:)(cleanliness is next to godliness) 45.shoes and handbags... 46.ladybugs and butterflies(my room is loaded ) 47.showing people that i care.... 48.watching the blue sky.....(weird but it gives me energy) 49.i always do my projects in the last minute:S 50.i get inspired during the night:D 51.i hate clichés and stereotypes ...well hate is such a strong word....let's say i dislike them 52...shooting pics and painting 53....leonard cohen's voice 54.trying to look on the bright side of life...i think that each experience we have it adds to our personal growth ..and makes us what we are...we keep on evolving and/or adapting(like someone once said..even if i like the evolving part more) 55.i want to have 2 kids and 2 dogs(1 golden retriever and a shar pei) 56. wanna travel the world.... 57.i have a thing for latin language 58.sea food...salads 59.tulips....jasmine....lily of the valley....roses...lavender 60.i find order in my disorder.. 61.i can drive but i dont have a driving license:D 62. if i had a driving license i would be a fast driver...so maybe its better i dont posses one:D 63.i had a bf when i was like....ummm....2 or 3 years old:)(i even have a pic of him ....i was kissing him on his cheeks)....mum says i was kissing everybody when i was a kid...lol(unlike now) 64.I believe in reincarnation 65.im good at solving twisted logical pbs 66.my hairs are curly 67.i collect cups(weird ones)and used to collect coins...my oldest coin is from 1870(or so)..and water globes 68.i love to win...but hate to see others lose 69.I am: moody....controlling, arrogant...sarcastic(sarcasm is my 2nd language), stubborn, obsessive(when i get things done), over-sensitive(sometimes) 70.but I am also: kind, smart, funny, imaginative(sometimes over-imaginative....but i dont see dead people:P), practical, creative,empathetic, loving, caring(they go hand in hand), conscientious and last but not least optimistic 71.i love movies 72. but hate watching them alone 73.i love popcorn(when it comes along with movies) 74.if we talk abt movies....i would choose: comedies, art movies, fantasy, animation, horror... 75.i love being surrounded by people from whom i can learn a lot 76.summer storms(donno if i mentioned abt them above...but i do love them) 77. walking in the rain 78.parks.... 79.macroshots of flowers and insects 80.i love to love and be loved 81.i do believe that life is a journey not a destination 82. i do believe we have time for everything we set our mind on...but sometimes we get to comfy and lazy and choose not to... 83.i do believe that when we are kids everything that surrounds us seems so perfect ...and as we grow older same things get different shapes and they lose their magic 84.i believe that everything that happens to us has a meaning..a reason 85.i dont like to be in the spotlight....but when im in the spotlight...... 86.My memory is simultaneously very good and very bad.(lol) 87.the color of my eyes is changing according to the seasons....sometimes blue sometimes grey or gray and sometimes a mix between blue and green 88.i love weddings(but not because of the food ....its because i dance a lot ...and its funny to see how people try to fix me up with somebody...and 100% of the times they fail:D) 89.when in a relation ...i believe in trust ...respect and mutual understanding 90.my fav place to spend my time: a bookstore where they serve different flavors of tea...they usually play good music inside...and the scent of books mixed up with dried tea leaves floats in every corner of the shop)mmm...divine 91.or to lay in the grass and watch the stars/clouds(during day) 92.im a good listener...i talk less and listen more... 93.im diplomatic....i rather talk than fight 94.the cold breeze on my face on a hot day 95.smell of the ocean/sea..... 96.the smell of fresh cut grass 97.im a pro teaser(i am ...i should get a degree 4 that) 98.i collect anything that has the detail of the 2 angels (of rafaelo santi ...from madonna sistina)...im crazy abt them 99.lol...finally im done...its kinda though....100 things abt yourself is a tough job...and it took me 1 week or so... 100..nobody is perfect...im nobody---->lol and i said i hate clichés:P 101.Look into my eyes. You are growing sleepy… very sleepy. When you awake, you will remember nothing… nothing....nothing....BLANK
had a very weird day 2day.....had a meeting with a friend i never met(long story).....and she forgot to show up:).....she left me an offline message on yahoo....which i never got coz i never signed in ..so there i was walking alone on the street with no battery on my cell...on a windy evening well not a pleasant way to spend a monday evening i agree....and with absolutely no mood to go back home.....so there i was on an empty street thinking what to do and where to go so out of the blue i decided to buy a newspaper and go 4 a hot cocoa ....and that was the best decision i took so far (today)..the cocoa was delicious like always creamy and with white puffy cream(reminds me of clouds) on top ....a very fine texture that excites ur several thousand taste buds, those small structures on the upper surface of the tongue that interpret the sense of what flavors are in that mystifying drink. The rich velvety, warm taste of chocolate took me on a higher level....beyond imagination....and it did save my hectic day... i absorbed its warmth into my body and received its energy . ..thinking of my love affair with chocolate..well i think it started in my mother's womb ....since then i got the addiction...which i guess its my only addiction( oh no that'a a big lie..i do have addictions...not harmful ones ...interesting ones ..which i dont wanna talk about right now coz im losing my subject )....but what was my subject...??....umm nevermind i dont really need a subject there is always something to talk about ....so while i was enjoying my cocoa (which was served in a middle size mug...i would choose a big mug to serve the cocoa...) and reading the newspaper it hit me....and what hit me....well ill tell u some other time...coz i should probably be having pudding with the angels(thats how a dear person of mine tells me when i should be off to bed)....so au revoir ...see yaa...noapte buna...
what's really sad...is that most of us dont follow their dreams...some of us have even forgotten how to dream ..so much they are caught up in routine ....met so many people that hate their life and they wont do a thing to change it....even if they are a step away from finding their happiness they wont do it ...why?i will never understand ....one thing im sure of : life is the biggest ...and most amazing gift god gave us...and i wont blew it ...with every step i take ill learn..evolve and try to be better....and yet ill die ignorant ...but i also know that death is not the end...just the beginning of a beautiful journey among the stars...so my aim is..to leave something behind me..some tracks...something that reminds of my existance..i guess its a duty ...we all are programmed to do something out of our life....im just wondering whats my purpose...i guess sooner or later ill find out probably you are wondering where i want to take you...good question..i guess ill take you to a place where there is no denial...where there is no "i cant do it"...no false excuses...no"i have no time"...cause in reality we do have enough time to do different things...we just choose to be passive and do nothing waste our time uselessly and still cry out loud ..... we do have time....to dream....to fight....to love.... to hate...to discover....to say goodbye...to trust...to fail...to succeed....to win...to lose....to live....to sleep(sometimes with our eyes wide open)..to regret i learned that most of the times its about quality not quantity....its about WHOM u have in ur life not WHAT u have....its about reality not impossible dreams...its about LOVE not hate... so do u want me to take you there?
Everything in life is cumulative..if you follow a single principle that takes u towards success u’ve already made a step forward ....you moved the cause and every single cause generates an effect or a result and every result takes us to a particular direction...and every direction has a destination:) we are what we are thanks to the people that surround us to those that passed our life...those who educated us ..each and every step we take is important and should be empowered with will and strength...and that's what makes us what we are TODAY....and for sure TOMORROW we will be better....it all lies in our hands...the way we chose to evolve and learn from our experiences...good or bad The most frequent questions that i received were: who am i and what im looking for....well here is a short description of my humble self....im the birdwatcher from the roses square and im looking for the yellow of the hawkbit , the smell of the cornfield , the morning zephyr or the evening breeze...im looking for the touch....the rain....the wind....color ...shape ...whisper....caress....perfume ...snow...the evergreen....summerstorm....raving of the fluids.... the ecstasy ....im hungry for knowledge and almost everything fascinates me.....LIFE is amazing if u choose to look at it from the right angle....if u keep ur calm and learn from ur mistakes.....cause every road has a destination and it all lies in ur hands....u are the leader of your own life:)
my genotype is always a rebellion......my phenotype is apparently calm....or vice versa...who cares....an incurable optimist ...with hedonistic inclinations ...a dreamer and a realist ...sometimes romantic sometimes not ...practical, responsible, and determined about protecting my purpose or advocating for my resources.... empowered by the status quo and my asset is value...my superpower is liberated by free will and trust, which lead me to explore simple speculations for their own sake... I can move beyond the fear factor and I dont know where Im going, and I dont care where ive been... I only know that .. its for me to find out... for, like Alice, im on the verge of stepping into a rabbit hole and unless I stop short and play it safe, ill know soon enough where following my own feet has landed me on this curious venture. The blissful frailty of unwritten conclusions and unguarded access sweetens the desire..so despite familiar warnings, irresistible promise draws my eyes wide open and away from domestic comfort zones, with only certain inquiry, hope and faith to recommend my course...ill never know until I try:)
